Tuesday, January 15th, 2008
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12:54 pm - Birthday
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This is eleven days late but I had the BEST BIRTHDAY EVER!!! I went bowling, ate at Dinosaur BBQ (the best restaurant ever), my cousin took me shopping and I got a whole new wardrobe, my parents took me to carmine's (my second favorite restaurant), and I got so many gifts I can't even name them all.
It's weird that I'm 25 now and everyone keeps telling me I should feel old... but I don't. I still feel like I'm in college. I guess it's true you're only as old as you feel. And I think I'll feel 21 for the rest of my life. :)
current mood:  contemplative
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Saturday, December 29th, 2007
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6:39 pm - Story of the Ugly Red Bag
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For Christmas one of my aunts felt that I needed a red suede bag with white shearling lining from Bath and Body Works. It is the ugliest thing I have ever seen. I actually was expecting something really cool after I saw a few of the other gifts she gave. She gave one of my other aunts a Coach necklace, a DKNY charm bracelet, DKNY perfume and a DKNY brown suede purse. she gave my mother an iPod, my brother a diamond Luxe watch, my cousin Jason a platinum Luxe watch, my cousin Anita a Michael Kors sweater and my sister a Sony mp3 player. It isn't even the fact that everyone else's gift was more expensive than my own. It was more the fact that she seemed to go out of her way to get me something so horribly bad. She could have got me a card and a twenty dollar gift card and I would have been happy. Instead she got me something that was so not me. I can't even imagine her going into a store, seeing that bag and saying to her self that the bag would be something I would like. When I told my friends about the bag they all asked me if my aunt liked me or if I had done something to offend her. Normally I wouldn't even care if I got a present since I'm at an age where I'm even surprised to get anything at all but it does make me feel like she didn't even bother. I think it hurts because it seems like she doesn't care and I kind of feel like it was personal. Anyway she and her family leave to return home in a couple of days so I think I can survive three more days of acting gracious.
current mood:  amused
current music: No One- Alicia Keys
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Saturday, November 24th, 2007
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6:35 pm - Life Goes On
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So much has happened in the short month since I've written. I absolutely hate my new job. The only thing that makes it worthwhile is the money. I received no training when I started. I was basically put on the job and told to sink or swim. The people I work with are either antisocial or clique-y. There are only a few people who I am comfortable with and who seem cool. The patrons are the absolute worst. They make me want to stab my eye with a spork by the end of the work day. I've decided to focus on getting into grad school so that I won't lose my mind. By focusing on grad school it gives me some light at the end of the tunnel.
Thanksgiving was Thursday and it actually went better than expected. That may have been because not as many of my family showed up. I love my family but sometimes it's like... damn!!! It was good to be able to go to my aunt's and not have to worry about cooking or anything else. Just being able to enjoy the day and give thanks was definitely a blessing.
I also saw the movie "This Christmas" on wednesday it was actually better than expected. We were actually going to see "Beowulf" but ended up missing it because we spent an hour and a half looking for parking. I was pissed to miss it but ended up enjoying the other movie anyway so I guess it wasn't too bad.
current mood:  bitchy
current music: Silence
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Friday, October 5th, 2007
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7:00 pm - Last Day of Work
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Today was my last day of work. It was kind of bittersweet. I'm going to a job that has so much more of what I'm looking for and it has a lot more room for growth. But the job I'm leaving gave me so much of the knowledge and skills that got me the job. The people I worked with became like a family to me and I'll miss the so much. I think the most nerve wracking thing is going to a place that is sooo huge and not knowing anyone. I know I can do the job but it's scary feeling alone. I just choose to look at it as a new chapter and I'm more than ready to write it. :)
current mood: hopeful
current music: Never Tear Us Apart- INXS
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Monday, October 1st, 2007
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3:34 pm
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I went to Duvet in the city this weekend. It's supposedly one of the hottest clubs in NYC right now. I was definitely disappointed, though. It's one of those typical Manhattan clubs that has a selective door, costs an arm and a leg to get into if you don't have the right connections and forces you to buy bottles of liquor. Luckily enough a friend of mine was able to get us on the guest list so we wouldn't have to pay but even being on the guest list we could still be denied at the door. So I was forced to dress up to make sure we get in. To give them credit the decor is great but the club is way smaller than I expected. On top of that most of the guys in there are not attractive at all. The door may have been selective but I think it was only in reference to the women because the guys were just... ugh. The DJ was even worse. He kept playing the worst songs and when he did play a good one he wouldn't play it until the end. Around I am they had another DJ take over who was significantly better and that's when I really started to enjoy myself. The only problem I had from there on out were a couple of guys who kept trying to grind and dance all over me. They were some serious greaseballs as my friend Farah would say. Though there were portions of the evening that went well overall I was disappointed. I went out of my way for the night and didn't get anything in return. I think next time I feel like partying I'll stick to lounges and bars like usual instead of letting my friends talk me into anything else.
current mood:  mellow
current music: None
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Wednesday, September 26th, 2007
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7:59 pm
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I start my new job on October 15th. I'm giddy with joy. The only thing that can hold up this job is if my last reference doesn't come through. I'm holding out hope that my old supervisor will not let me down.
On a note completely unrelated to work (shocker!), I'm also applying to grad school to either get an MS Ed in Counselor Education or MLS in Library Sciences. I think everything is finally coming together. YAY!!!
I'm planning to go t some club on Friday called Duvet. I heard it was extremely popular. Only problem I have is that I have nothing to wear. I have a closet full of clothes yet nothing I own is appropriate for a night of clubbing at one of NYC's hottest night spots. I'm actually considering just wearing one of my work suits and calling it a day. We'll see how that goes over. :P
current mood: chipper
current music: Please Don't Stop the Music- Rihanna
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Monday, September 24th, 2007
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4:26 pm
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I posted this on my livejournal and decided to post it here as well. It was written as a dedication to my grandmother who passed in 2003. The anniversary of her death is coming up (October1) and I miss her now just as much.
Letter to Nama
I decided to write a letter to heaven tonight because I need someone to listen to me
Though it’s been a while since you passed I still can’t believe you’re gone
When you were sick I prayed and prayed for you but it never seemed to work
I can’t help it but I feel my faith fading at times
Other times memories flood my mind and I stop everything and cry
But that’s just during the day
Each night I cry and cry until I fall asleep exhausted
And just before I fall asleep I ask God to fly me closer to heaven above and closer to you
I plead with him to make the pain go away
And then the memories flood my mind and I stop everything and cry
The Bible says “Blessed are the mourners for they shall be comforted”
I have yet to receive that comfort
It gets so hard to breathe sometimes
I think I’m drowning in myself
Then all of a sudden the memories flood my mind and I stop everything and cry
It’s been said that to live is to suffer…to survive is to find meaning in the suffering
But in this case I can’t find any meaning, so how am I to survive?
I don’t know how I am expected to go on without you
I just can’t do this alone
The memories keep flooding my mind and I stop everything and cry
But I don’t want anyone to know so I pretend I’m okay
Though secretly I keep looking to the sky awaiting your return
I act alright hoping one day it’ll be true
I just don’t want to cry anymore
But the memories flood my mind again and I stop everything and cry
I realize now the pain won’t ever ebb because a heart can’t forget someone like you
I know now that you’re still with me
And you will help me get through every trial and tribulation put before me
‘Cause God has seen fit to send me a guardian angel…you
And then the memories flood my mind and I stop everything and smile.
current mood: contemplative
current music: Fly Like a Bird- Mariah Carey
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4:15 pm - New Job
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I got the job. I'm so excited. I prayed and prayed on this and God did not let me down. I am now an information assistant. I am going to be making way more money than I make at the college I work at. Even better are the benefits. I'm ready to start tomorrow but I have to give my two weeks which sucks. I guess I can survive it knowing there is light at the end of the tunnel.
On another note I saw Resident Evil Extinction over the weekend. It was horrible but I expected that. The only good thing I can say about it is that it doesn't try to be more than what it is. So you can go and enjoy it for the mindless mess that it is. On a positive note I did see the preview for Cormac McCarthy's No Country for Old Men. The movie looks like it will be the hottest movie of the year. I was really excited to see American Gangster with Denzel Washington but after seeing the preview for No Country it was bumped to my second most anticipated movie of the year.
current mood:  thankful
current music: Silence
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Tuesday, August 28th, 2007
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11:53 pm - So Anxious
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I really feel like this job thing is going to come through for me. I heard from the woman in the Human Resources department and apparently they are waiting for confirmation from my school that I graduated with my Bachelor's. So, hopefully, finally I can relax.
current mood:  anxious
current music: Jenny- The Click 5
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